I’ve got a big heart, I would drop everything for any friend that needed me. But Lord do I forget that I don’t have a filter sometimes. Let me tell you having no filter is a blessing and a curse all in one. I’m there to constantly provide comedic relief, even if it is in the heat of the moment, or at the worst time possible.
I love who I am as a professional, and who I am outside of the work place, but one of my favorite topics of discussion is telling people I work in public relations, after they get a feel for who I already am outside of work.
I have a hard time not acknowledging things that are weird or abnormal or inappropriate or unintentionally funny. Particularly in social settings, when something weird or funny or strange happens and most people are inclined to ignore it or pretend they didn’t notice, I feel the need to acknowledge it and talk about it immediately.
However; sometimes I live in a perpetual state of word vomit and things come out before they are well thought through, which means sometimes I don’t take anyone’s feelings into account.
If you want an honest opinion, I’m your girl. I’ll tell you if you look drop dead gorgeous in something, but I’m also not going to hesitate to tell you to find something a bit more appropriate, it’s part of my bittersweet honesty.
Being a girl with a big heart but a loud mouth creates moments with your friends, because sometimes they’re laughing hysterically, and sometimes they’re thinking about how to refrain from throat punching you.
I truly have the best of intentions, but on occasion I forget that sometimes ignorance is bliss. That not everyone is ready to hear the truth, or take anything I say with a grain of salt.
I have a knack for making people feel extremely comfortable or insanely awkward, there’s no in between. I love being able to read people, and getting them to open up once they warm up. Unfortunately, I also have this weird obsession with putting people in uncomfortable situations. You learn so much about a person when you break them out of their comfort zone. Learn how they react when they don’t know how to respond, because it tells you a lot of who a person is.
People often can’t tell if i’m being serious or i’m joking. I’m open about everything and I never hold anything back, and sometimes i’m so honest that people think you can’t possibly be serious.
I live a life full of compassion and understanding, but also a life full of slightly bitter blunt truths. I don’t mask my feelings; my face literally gives away whatever I’m thinking. If there is a thought that crosses my mind or a comment, it’s going to come out, and sometimes that’s not the best.
I know how maintaining positive relationships with people can be challenging, it’s something I’ve learned when I figured out that maybe I don’t have a filter. But for some people out there maybe my lack of filter is what makes me a real friend, because in the end I don’t have anything to hide.
My life is a constant battle between flirting with honesty, and being slightly inappropriate. I wouldn’t have it any other way.